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Hi followers (all 2 of you or something close to that). So you may be asking, “Hrm, what slipped quietly out the back door?” Well, this is what I’ve found. As we all know, Easter has just passed us. And too break tradition I went to church (normally i look down on those that just go to holy day ceremonies). To my surprise, as I sat in the fairly chilled church, reading a pamphlet and looking around me, I suddenly realized I have lost all direction in this faith. To be honest, I found myself questioning everything that was being said during the mass. I guess I had this coming after avoiding church for so long, but who could really blame me? A church that damns me to the fires of hell right after reassuring me that they do not judge….a child could become confused. But I digress and fall back to that most holy Sunday. As I sat there, reviewing life choices, I suddenly was struck with a realization. I have COMPLETELY lost my faith, and for a hot minute it almost felt like i was looking under pews and statues trying to find it (as if I dropped it or something). How could this have happened so quickly? Has 12 years of catholic school completely gone down the drain?  ”Just calm down, Brian” I said to myself, trying to pull back my over paced mind. Let’s take a look back….have you killed anyone? …well no. have you coveted your neighbor’s wife? …oh god no. Have you obeyed your father and your mother? .. well, for the most part. So you’re in good standings right?…well i do say sir that i think you are correct! 

I’m not saying that I enjoyed realizing my faith in the catholic church as completely dried up, but what I am saying is that I have found that I can live a good and morally healthy life just by continuing to try and better myself. After all, isn’t that what all types of religion are doing in the long run? They all have the same message…”DO GOOD” (yes I did just imagine a booming voice from the sky). When I die, and IF I meet a maker, I honestly believe that although I did not call him by a specific name (Allah, Jesus, etc), I have done what is right and all that I could do in the world to better myself and the people around me, and that should count a heck of a lot more than just praying to an individual god. Although my religion has quietly slipped out the back door of my life, the morals and conscience that I have developed are still within me and guiding me (I hope). Overall, I think I’m going to be all right. Perhaps even better than all right. Look for me in the waiting line at the pearly gates (let’s be honest, I’m not getting anywhere close to the front of the line with Mother Teresa). 

My dear tumblr,

Shall I turn you into a blog?

How would you feel about that?

Forever yours,
Moi xoxo